The Waiting is the Hardest Part

IMG_3090defaultWell, we’ve made it to the hospital at the butt crack of dawn as advised. It is now 9:30 am and we’re still waiting to be taken back. I am so impatient and I always have been.  I’m sure it’s part of the ADD.


What makes things worse is that I’m a perfectionist. Try mixing those two things together and your constantly, quickly letting yourself down.


I use to love playing pool, but taking my time to line a shot up just isn’t in my DNA.  I could never play golf. I can’t even watch golf. I use to thoroughly enjoy fishing. That is until mid morning my body would hurt so bad that I couldn’t go on.

What’s worse is knowing that the pain I felt right then would feel like a walk in the park compared to tomorrow. And if I’m not catching fish what’s the point? MCTD and RA have taken a lot of enjoyment from me.


I haven’t mentioned it yet, but I started taking Plaquenil a few weeks ago. It has had no effect on me as of yet. I’ve read it can take 6 months or longer to feel a difference. I also started taking prescription strength vitamin D.


If anything, I honestly feel a tad bit worse. I wonder if it’s just coincidence that I’m all flared up after starting the medicine or if this is normal. I don’t see my rheumatologist again until 5/31 and by then I know I will have a ton of questions. That is unless I forget to take my list which is highly possible. Or if she takes forever to get to me and I find my impatient self waiting forever, like I’m doing at the moment; and when she finally decides to grace me with her presence, I say “nope, no questions” again, like I’ve been doing. All because I’m ready to press out of there. And I don’t know why. My life is pretty boring. I don’t usually have anything to do. No deadlines to meet. No reason to be ready to leave quickly.


Just no patience.


I’m going to take some surveys now to pass the time. It is now almost 10:00 and we’re still waiting. I’m annoyed. Very annoyed. I’ll update when I know anything.

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